The pain has come back in strong force. It’s my right thigh, very close to the place that had me screaming in pain a few months ago; before my pain pump was surgically installed. This time the pain is not as extreme, allowing me to suffer in silence.
It’s amazing how I can go from 3 weeks of rosy health to a day of frightful pain. Will it continue? Get worse? Can doctors find a way to make it go away or will I have to live with it?
I took my strongest drug, Dilaudid, to no effect. It’s supposed to be 10 times more powerful than morphine but, as far as my thigh is concerned, it’s a worthless placebo. Kasha gave me another dose of Lyrica this afternoon. It’s supposed to help with nerve pain, and it’s possible that’s what this is. The pain feels like it’s in muscle or nerve, not bone. I’ve been told I have cancer within my thigh bones (as well as many other bones), which is why I sometimes worry about the pain breaking through.
Tomorrow I go to see my oncologist (cancer doctor) and will hopefully get more answers. Also, I’ve been having extreme pain near the power port in my chest, the one used as an IV. It began happening when my antibiotic was being pushed in last week. The nurse who’s been overseeing my port use says it may be the result of a hole in the catheter portion. If that’s true I’ll have to have surgery again to replace it. Man, I’m so sick of surgery. Anyway, they’ll test my port soon with dye, to see if a hole is visible.
It’s been a while since I wrote and all I have to share is bad news. Sorry about that. I should have been sharing all the wonderful days I’ve had until now; the feeling of strength and confidence. Life’s been great, and I need to remember to carry that feeling forward even when the pain comes. I too often let a health problem turn my world upside down.
I’ll make it through this, though, just as I always do. I just had to moan for a bit.
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You are so honest and real about all this and I can’t imagine how you do it. It is good to hear your voice online, even when it is bad news, when you need our shoulders and prayers. We Coes love you bunches. Know that. Hope you get some productive answers tomorrow. I’ll keep posted.
C
I’m so sorry that this battle has been a roller coaster ride – emotionally, mentally and physically. I am in constant awe of your strength and courage and I want you to remember that you are not alone. I love you honey.
Kasha
Morgan,
I am so sorry that you are in such pain again. I wish I had words of wisdom for you – I don’t.
I just want you to know that you are on many prayer chains, and even when it doesn’t feel like it, God is with you as you are going through this awful ordeal.
I pray that you will get some comfort and relief from this pain, and that you will have “good days” soon.
You are loved!
Morgan, I’m sorry to hear about the pain you are in again & pray that it will end soon.
About not sharing your good days with us is very understanding because you are having time to enjoy the things you don’t often see because of the pain. You have many prayers being said for you by some of my friends & so many others. I wish I could be there with your Dad & Carol & visit with you but it may be awhile before I can be in a car for such a long time. I hope things start getting better soon. love you
Moan, man. Let it all out. You are one tough SOB to go through all of this, and one generous spirit to show us the way.
I hope you’re feeling better soon if not already,
Craig Constantine
I am a friend of Melissa’s and I just wanted you to know that I have been and will continue praying for you and checking your blog to keep updated for specific things to pray for. May God give you strength and peace.